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Jun. 28th, 2011

angry palmtop tiger

Goodbye.

This space has been abandoned.

It has found a new home at http://peppermintshan.blogspot.com/


Too much spam going on Livejournal, too much spam.

May. 24th, 2011

waiting alone

Ja-Ja-Jaded

Come on, come on
Put your hands into the fire
Explain, explain
As I turn and meet the power
This time, This time
Turning white and sense dire
Pull up, pull up
From one extreme to another

- Thirteen Senses, Into the Fire

I didn't know what to write but wrote something only to have e page die on me.

Screw it, screw it screw it screw it.

May. 20th, 2011

scenary

The damn dark doofy cloud

MEREDITH: [narrating] "After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown-up. We move out, we move away from our families. But the basic insecurities, the fears and all the old wounds just grow up with us. Just when you think life has forced you to truly become an adult, your mother says something like that. We get bigger, taller, older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in."

Agreed.
 

May. 1st, 2011

caffine

More to life

Everyone's rallying at the rallies or debating in the debates nowadays, for the General Election is up and coming.

To be honest, I'm feeling rather detached from it compared to my peers. You know, the rest who are eligible for voting for the very first time. But as detached as I am, I sometimes question back my requirements for that trust in vote. Then I realize there are no requirements to win my vote, except I really just wish to have a good life with my family, quietly.

Has that been happening over the past few years. No, it has not. Of course, it is a personal adventure to be born to a family that soon became defective and troubles plague continuously, challenging your humanity again and again. Thankfully, I emerged to be what I believe a strong and firm fighter but not one that rebelliously look for troubles. But that does not make the other paths in life much easier.

Housing is my problem for the past five years, of course because I have been renting housing for a long time. As of now, 60% of my salary goes to paying bills and ends meet so any additional surcharge in life will require me to work even harder. The other 40% includes what goes on to food and transportation, which takes up about 50% of what remains no thanks for taxes/GST and what's not. 15% of what remains goes to insurance because of my lineage of health problems. Back, kidneys, gastric, I'm a walking pharmacy!

So while I worry about the great necessities of life, I find myself too weak to find time and energy to engage in political antics. All I want is a content and quiet life. Where I don't feel like a second class citizen. And my fight to survival goes beyond currencies of finance. But it gets tougher. And when some figure goes to public and announce the HDBs to be simply shelters and people should not desire to own it as an asset, I begin to wonder if it's pointless to even debate.

My sense of belonging to great shelter, amounts to sheer apathy. And I damn well know why it has turn out so.

Mar. 28th, 2011

serious music

The song that saved me from all the confusion which almost engulfed me

曾經趕不上 至立心趕上
迷失中走過 才認清方向
從舊時天真 漸變成一臉倔強
誰又來聽心的傷

如果真的愛 其實我善良
如果真的痛 流淚也平常
隨遇而安好 還要贏一次硬仗
誰又來用心欣賞


*難道開不開心的都同樣 才稱得上是休養
從一開始不反抗 一生不可反抗 怎么可甘心這樣
回望 彼此扭曲的模樣 遺失的拼命追上
還想不想犧牲我 想不想犧牲愛 堅守這一些所謂 理想
*

成功這么近 才越戰越強
回憶這么遠 忘掉也平常
期望無止境 直到良知也奉上
誰在乎滿身的傷
Repeat*

the rantCollapse )

Mar. 18th, 2011

i see

Unconditional love is a dragon

Because it does not exist in flesh, but only in many imaginations

Everything in life is tagged with conditions, perhaps. Even Mother Nature's love for us. Even mother's love for me. Every single person's love for me. And it's the conditions that keep you fueled in life and have you struggling to break through the water surface to just breathe.

Oh how we suffer, but at the end of it all I only wish for a simple tug on my sleeve asking me if I remember for whom, what, why am struggling, to come to terms with all that writhing.

Or I'm just a contradictory being wishing to live in a bigger world though my heart and soul is such a small thing in comparison.

Feb. 21st, 2011

angry palmtop tiger

手乗りTiger Punch

Don't look down on Asians, we can punch the living daylights out of you regardless our stature. Just ranting
Take that racists arses.







Sorry for the video heavy post. Just saying.

Feb. 1st, 2011

wtf

Lesson number not so important

Here's an interesting read on perfectionists, coming from a perfect example of a perfectionist, me.
How Perfectionism Hurts Your Career

And here's an important lesson on perfectionism. It's a solo journey. I'm not peeved by the article at all, just smiling at some spot-on examples, after all it quotes "hurts your career" not ruin it. As I was saying, perfectionism is a solo journey and here's why.

It's good for housekeeping. But it's not good for housekeeping done with other folks. Even with another perfectionist (my boy).
It's good for self-reflection but an extremely bad perspective to harp about in group conversations. Friends will feel helpless at your frantic measures.
It's good for planning how to improve life for others, but bad for improving other people's lives.

Perfectionism isn't a flawCollapse )

Not every cat owner is a VirgoCollapse )

Cats are the purrfectionistas!Collapse )

Jan. 24th, 2011

hugs

I'm a sucker for astrology, and now it's Vedic Astrology!

According to the readings, I'm in charge with...

"cleaning of the house and household articles and they force others to do the same."

Bingo about forcing others to do the same. I'd make my cat clean his cage if I could!

And then it says,

"..will remain faithful to those who love her and will not hesitate to sacrifice anything for such persons. Ashwini born is the best friend in need, provided others understand her. She keeps her patience even at the time of greatest perils. But it will be a hurricane task to console the native when she goes berserk. She is the best advisor to the persons in agony. But she deeply resents and fears criticism, see suggestions from others, as a frightening attempt at manipulation. "

When the Vedic astrology says that I'm an Aries under its calculation I was skeptic. But it seems like the descriptions are still true, and I'm not the irrational ram as described in many Western Astrology. Okay, points of confidence added!

And last but not least,

"her financial or other conditions would have improved by her 50th years of age, and she no longer requires any work for her livelihood. She will thereafter devote herself to the welfare of the family and to some extent do social work, provided other planetary positions are not adverse. "

It may be too early but that is very close to how I perceive myself to be! I have this mental image of maintaining a small, modest service for people in need. Whether it be the caring of deserted pets, going into the wild (realistically at 50, I'm like a walking human bait) or having a cafe for people to sit and talk their troubles away.

Hmm I'm not sure if you're buzzing with questions with the latest revoke of Western Astrology's credibility but you can work out your Vedic chart @ here. The only problem is you have to register. There's not much use and you can delete the account after :)

Jan. 4th, 2011

ff8 the magnificent

Hello, 7 billion people!

It's the stunning fact of 2010, as I watch this video on the last day of last year, an amazing figure is made known to me for the very first time. Human beings are, as of now, not one of the endangered species! Not that I would like us to be, mind you!

But like what they always say, it's all about balance.

So off I go trotting to HK once again to search for some sort of balance! This is the country which has many similar properties as our country except for our location close to the equator. But HK has some great loves! The food, the shopping, the boot-worthy weather! Hello suitcase, here we roll!

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